An Angel Amongst Us

Yesterday....My morning run was not like my usual morning run. I remember thinking what a perfect, sunny and cool morning it was. When I run I usually say a prayer. So my prayer this morning was one just for my grandma Anne. For the past year she has been battling cancer. Early Tuesday morning she fell and broke her hip so I went to visit her in the hospital. It was then that I learned of how much she was suffering. It was so heartbreaking. All I could do was say prayers for her. But today in thinking of how long she has been struggling, I asked God to take her into his kingdom. It was this day that she passed away. Despite not having her here on earth with us, she is in a more peaceful place. She no longer has to endure the aches and pains, the daily struggles, the sadness, that once filled her life. Although she lived a long and plentiful life, we have the wonderful memories of her in our hearts. As much as it hurts not having her with us physically, she will forever be a wife, a mom, a friend and a grandmother. You will forever be missed... Love you Grandma!!!

A New Chapter

Well the day is finally here...I am going back to work tomorrow! It's bittersweet. So excited to go back to doing what I love...teaching, yet sad to not be with my little man in the mornings. For the past year and half, I've been all E knows during his days. As I reflect on the year I am so happy and grateful to have had the time I had at home with Evan. We have done so many things together from music to swimming to tumbling classes. We have even explored the museums, parks and local play places. We also met an amazing group of friends. I am so glad to have met them and don't know what I'd do without them. They made being a stay at home mom all the more fun!

As cliche as it sounds, I feel as if it were yesterday that I was holding our newborn baby boy. With the blink of an eye, he's become a little man! As I have said so many times (and as I imagine all parents do) I am so proud of Evan. He's naturally developed and has exceeded my expectations. It's the little moments that we share. When we sit and play, we cuddle, we explore, we sing and dance. It's the look we give one another, the unspoken love between us. These are the moments that I embrace, the moments I want to remember forever and ever. Since I will no longer be with E in all day, I will truly cherish those moments we have had and the moments that we have yet to experience with one another. As the saying goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder. With that said, I sure hope that God gives me the strength to get through the first few weeks of not being with Evan in the mornings. I know E's in good hands and will continue to thrive but I naturally find it hard not to feel guilty for going back to doing something that I love while I leave him. I hope Evan will also appreciate me more when we have our time together!

Mommy & Daddy Time

What a rejuvenating weekend! Dave and I went to Kohler Water Spa this weekend in Wisconsin. We left Friday afternoon to retreat to the most relaxing and most needed time away sans Evan. We planned it for a last get-away before I return to work part time the end of August. It was hard to leave E without shedding some tears (me that is, not Dave :0) but once we did, I was eager to start to set all worries and cares aside to embrace the time Dave and I had for one another. Once we arrived at the Carriage House (our hotel located above the water spa, we enjoyed some appetizers and drinks before dinner. We ordered room service (too tired to get dressed up and go out to eat) then headed to the relaxation pool at the water spa. How inviting and relaxing!!! We enjoyed a drink while reading and lounging on the cushioned lounge chairs alongside the waterfall. Saturday we worked out, Dave went to the range to hit some balls while I went to a yoga by the lake class and got a mani/pedi. We met up for lunch at Blackwolf lodge and after lunch relaxed in the spa for a few hours before getting ready for dinner. Right before dinner we went to the Winery had excellent wine and listened to a pianist. We had dinner at the Wisconsin Room and again went to relax for the evening at the relaxation pool before calling it a night. Sunday we ate breakfast in bed before leaving for home. As much as I enjoyed the time away with Dave, the relaxation and ease of not caring for anyone but ourselves it was beyond wonderful to see our smiling E when we got home! He had a great time with his Grandpa and Grandma. Dex, of course, had fun too! They went to the beach, Family Grounds, and for walks. E slept and ate really good and brought much joy to his grandparents during their stay!! Thanks Mom and Dad for helping to make our time away stress free!!! We are very grateful!!!

Taking a Moment

I love to stop, cuddle and breathe in Evan. His smells, his touch, his pure innocence is so peaceful. In one single moment of seeing him or thinking of him all my cares and worries disappear. Each day, I stop, I sit, and I take in all of him. I can never get enough of him. I thank God each and every day for being so blessed to have him. I cannot imagine life without him. He is such a breath of fresh air. I love what he has taught me, to be still, take in the moment, and listen to the laughs, the tears and the experiences in life. I love imagining what his future holds and all the endless possibilities it offers. Thank you Evan for being you! I love you with all my heart!

A week of many firsts

Lots of stuff happening with E...my goodness! I feel like I haven't written in months! Well Evan is continuing to amaze us. He is talking up a storm. A few people that I see during the week at our play places even made comments about him being a chatterbox. I think Dave and I may be in for it! E also walked backwards for the first time in our kitchen earlier this week. I think he was motivated to do it because I sort of had him cornered. He was in need of a serious diaper change. For those of you that don't know, E has never been a fan of diaper changes in fact he hates it so much he throws a full out crying fit every time. Tears and all...you would think he was in some serious pain by the look and sound of his outrage. Well anyhow, he so cleverly used his newly acquired skill in an attempt to escape the "diaper changing situation". Putting my proud mommy moment aside...I quickly captured him and successfully changed the diaper. E was not too happy to say the least.

Another first happened at Gymboree. Evan had been practicing walking across this green bridge for the past week or so. It's not a flat bridge rather it is an uneven bridge. Looks like a ripple if that makes sense. Well...he finally did it...without falling might I add. He was very proud, but not as proud as Mommy of course. He even got to show off his latest achievement to Daddy on Friday when Daddy tagged along with us.

This past weekend E and I went to Family Grounds Cafe on Saturday (Dave was in Wisconsin visiting his brother and golfing). For a week now I have been teaching Evan about feelings and using the sign for happy, sad, and mad and how to teach him when to say 'excuse me' and 'sorry'. While E and I were sitting in the cafe, E was munching on his snack and heard a little kid crying. He stopped, looked at the kid, then at me, and signed 'sad'. I was ecstatic!!! Now to work on his awareness of his own feelings :-)